Big Girl Moves


 In June, I did something that scared me. 

I joined a GYM 🏋🚴💪

 And it is working out pretty nicely. 

After moving and settling in a new location, I knew that it was time to grow up and step out of the comfort that is 'introvert'ness. 

I was too comfortable being alone, all of my friendships were at least two hours away and at most out of the country. A huge part of me craved a connection that could only be filled by human interactions. 

Humans are social creatures, and we were made for emotional and social codependency. Endless scrolling, maladaptive daydreaming and living vicariously through my screen was not going to help me win this one. 

What steps did I take? 

I joined a gym. Yes. It hat always been on my mind but the fear of exposing my insecurities before a group of strangers did not sit well with me. However, the plan to achieve my body goals and talk to someone else other than the three characters I created in my head, was greater. 

I loved it. 

I still do. 

So far, I have made a few healthy connections. A few healthy friendships and now, I am accessible to someone literally five minutes away. 

Like I said, it is working out really well. 

The body. The mind. 

Adulting is all about challenging yourself and the comfort that you are used to. I am not completely out there yet, but wiith each day that I make an intentional decision to step out, I am rewarded with a calm mind, genuine laughter and a healthy body. 

What will I challenge myself to do next? 

I guess I'll find out. 

Incase you are new here, my name is ITOHAN, I haven't quite figured out where I belong, but I am The Creative Story Seamstress — tailoring words to design beautiful brands, minds, and lives… one stitch at a time. 

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