A little bit of Awkward

I was supposed to go up on stage to share my testimony at church. But first, I had to speak with a pastor — and while I waited for him to be ready, I looked for a seat.

Guess where I sat?

The Lead Pastor’s chair.

No, he wasn’t on it — c’mon! 😅 But still, within moments, a protocol officer approached me and quietly asked me to stand.

I did. And then frantically searched for a neutral seat, trying to disappear.

Problem is… this was happening right in front of over 200 people.

My heart was thudding so loud I could hear it in my ears. I felt like the whole world was laughing at me (spoiler alert: they weren’t). But in that moment, I was filled with embarrassment, shame, and regret.

For the rest of that week, I hid under the weight of that single awkward moment.

I made up my mind:

> “I’ll never go up in front of the church again. Ever.”

But then, I spoke to a friend.

She listened, then said:

> “The only person still thinking about that moment… is you.”

“You’ve internalized it. You’re afraid of ruining some perfect image of yourself. But no one else is watching that closely.”

And she was right.

I had decided to disappear based on a story I made up in my own head.

I told myself everyone remembered.

That I’d forever be known as “the girl who sat on the pastor’s chair.”

But the truth?

No one remembers. No one cared.

I had created an entire show in my mind — and the only audience member was me. 

That realization changed everything.

Now I laugh at the memory.

I’ve filed it away under “Comic Relief” — a funny little scene to chuckle about someday.

Because really… is life not serious enough already?

Sometimes, we all need a little bit of awkward. 🤭

Have you ever obsessed over an embarrassing moment — only to realize no one else noticed?

Let’s laugh about it together. Share yours below 👇