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My Rehoboth. Your Hope

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  I remember when I was house hunting few months ago.  Let's not talk about the money I paid to different agents 😅, thinking about it now, the total amount would have gotten me a month's stay in Peru...or a small condo in Bali 🤭 I stepped into different houses. Some, too small to accommodate Spongebob, some too dark, and some were just unnecessarily expensive.  But there was no giving up for me.  See I always envied people who had the choice and opportunity to return to their parent's houses after graduation. Unfortunately I did not have that and it meant that I had to find a place soon or get kicked out of the third place I was staying in.  Blessed to have had friends who accommodated me during this time, I would have been a fool to take them for granted.  The day I stepped into this particular house, I knew that I had finally found it.  The exterior was NOT aesthetically pleasing whatsoever, but the interior was spacious and exactly within my budge...

Love me, Signed... Me.

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I have always loved love. The idea of someone choosing to be with you forever, through all the stages of your growth and change over time, flaws and all- sounded amazing.. I did not know what love was.  Growing up I was treated as a convenient inconvenience, almost an afterthought, tolerated because they did not know what else to do to me, so every necessity was done to or for me out of obligation, every other thing was nonexistent And love or marriage occurred to me as an escape, a route through which I will eventually realize that I was worthy of being accepted just for who I am and not having to earn it by constantly trying to be a good girl.  As I grew older, and had failed relationships, I realized that I could not expect someone else to love me for who I am when I did not even love me for who I was-no, scratch that-i did not even know who I was.  Outside of trying to be the good daughter, sister and overall someone 'likeable and nice', so that they could accept me, ...